Last night I saw FOB live :)
they were so fuckin' awesome!!

I haven't been to many gigs, because of my age, but it was sooo crowded!!
I got crowd surfed, and my friend almost passed out

oops!

anyways
more laters xxxxx

It's been ages since an update, but I think this would be a good subject.
It's my mother's birthday today, she would've been about 53 or 54...
I had told myself I was over her death, but obviously I was wrong...
I really miss her sometimes and I wish she was with me right now, I know it would've never been the same if she was here... I wouldn't be who I am today, but I do miss her, i can't not.
This is my mother right?
It's been almost 5 years since her death and I still can't get over it.

I know I'll never fully get over it, but I have tried to be strong for my family... for my dad... who I know is hurting inside, and for everyone else.
I just wish I could know she was proud of me, or know she was watching me... and loving me as she did before.
I wish she was here.
Is that too much for me to wish?
It sounds stupid, but if I could've given my life up for her I would've.
I can remember the moment she was gone, how I felt, how my family felt, I feel the tears in my lap just like they did before.
I remember my dad telling me to be strong for us all... and I remember going back to collect my brother, I remember everything on that day... I remember how it was a Saturday, I remember all the stuff they had in the hospital.
I remember my age, I remember how it scarred me...
I can remember exactly how I felt, how it was a Saturday night... when I went to church the next day... how my brother reacted... how the school reacted...
How I knew then... that I couldn't do it alone....
And somehow I have..
and It's because she's been with me all along...
I'm Never ever alone.

I remember how much I loved her... I remember I was her baby....

R.I.P. Mai - 17th Nov 2001

Do you ever have days where you're bored out of your skull, have something to do but you don't?
why yes, today.
Am supposed to be revising for SATS, which are on tuesday-friday, but no. i just stay online and wait for someone interesting to come on.
I'm such a sad ass.
anyway... today i feel like the world is falling down onto me, and i keep listening to paramore
the world should know about them, they are awesome live.
oh yeah, did i post about it?

Paramore/Classic Case/Drive By/Black Out
So, it was like last saturday... a week ago, me, gigi and alice went to Camden.
i <333 camden.
and i bought a pretty dress... it's beauts!!
anyway... and then after, alice left... me and gigi met my sister in Angel Tube station.
we went to the islington carling academy, after a while of searching, and literally missed Black Out. but i didn't like them that much anyway.
like gigi said, the lead singer had bleach blonde hair and reminded her of the dude from Son Of Dork, cate is obsessed with.
i.e. Ugly.

anyway... and while classic case were on (AWESOME!!) my sister was using my camera to take pictures, she got taken out by the dude...
and he said, "stop it, and bring it down to the cloakroom." and well, her being deaf... didn't hear and just went back in.
and then me, being stupid started to take some when paramore came on. cmon! i cant NOT take some of paramore.
and in the end i got an extremely blurry one where u cldnt even see hayley picture of them.

then i had to put it in the cloakroom.
that sucked.
it cost £2...
at least i had money.
STUPID ISLINGTON.

and btw... me and gigi named the lead singer of classic case "ricky martin dude" and there was this guy wearing a hanson shirt, which made us laugh. and we LOVE the instrument techs!

PANIC! at the disco
me, alice, tes and liam went...
it was in astoria...
we kept going into the wrong places.
it was fun.

when we got in, we found zoei and cate....
and then the supports - men, women and children/forgive durden SUCKED.
and then when panic! came on, we pushed to the front, got in this awesome mosh pit that i wanted to stay in...
but noooooo cate couldn't breathe...
but we fell once, which was fun... cause this guy picked us up.
and then after... we saw hales and the others... hales was like mine and alices bodyguard.
love her.

anyway... that night was kinda shit... to be honest, even if panic! are awesome live... who cares?
it bored me... and the crowds were crazy.
and honestly. HOW CAN YOU MOSH TO PANIC! AT THE DISCO????
YOU CAN'T!!
lmfao....


anyways...
more laters

Frankie xxxxxxxxxxx




The Panic! at the disco gig



the guy from classic case that me and gigi thought looked like ricky martin



The guy from Classic Case



A v. blurry Hayley Williams



me and my dress from camden that you might not be able to see :)

nuff love xx

heyy!
It's easter!!
I got -0- eggs, and 2 virtual eggs!!
i also got a packet of jellybeans waiting on Zach's bed in Ohio.
he's a pretty boy... but damn that I'm in england, id be over there in a shot

:)
more later

happy easter!!

lol. so what happened today?
i went to Wimbledon and then Sutton, with my friend Zoei (later with Philippa as well).
I'm feeling so myspacey today
im annoyed, no one comments me?
Oh well, i have no friends anyways.
lol
laters xFx

What happened today?
God, so much!!
This morning I woke up and looked at my phone, guess what?
My cousin Xenia text me to tell me not to fear about the Reading tickets!!
I was sooo happy!!
I hope we'll be able to go, even if she would sell me for a backpass.
but, as Gerard Way said "don't show your tits to these rock 'n roll dudes cause that's just wrong' or something like that
whatever.
lol. anyway, and then my ceiling starts leaking? what's with that? it's fine now, thank fuck.
anywaysies, it's kinda late, should i go sleep?
Alice is coming over tomorrow, don't know what time.
But, I'll find out. Lol... anyways... erm yeah.
Camden on Saturday to meet Xenia.
haven't seen her in AGES!!
god, anyways... I'm listening to the used and wondering why the fuck i haven't got friends on this.
i made loadsa friends on GWF (look @ links, it's the shiz).
anyway. i don't care. it's just a journal thing.
lol laters
xFx

p.s. trust me, i promise i'm tired

Yay! I worked it out, I'm proud of myself.
Well, not really. I was kind of stupid not to know. but let's all just pretend I knew.
Right, so the girl has no friends.
How lonely. Oh, well, I don't care.
As long as I still have my PANIC! at the Disco and My Chemical Romance lol!
Tambourine man Mikey. Tambourine man!!



Yeah, I don't get out much :P
Laters Frankie ~ Leanne xx

p.s. if you're wondering, the header picture is Hayley Williams from Paramore. I think she's awesome!

Alright, so I'm Brand New to this... and a bit confused (understatement of the year)
So, I'll just walk back slowly and attempt to work this out
:)
Smiles and hugs
Frankie xx